February 22, 2006

i'm waiting for my real life to begin

As I approach the halfway point of my last semester of college, I'm starting to get a little nervous. Some people have jobs lined up already. Some people have had multiple interviews with various companies. I had two interviews last semester and have a pile of thanks-but-no-thanks letters from a bunch newspapers sitting on my desk. I have a few more I'm still waiting to hear from, but my hopes aren't too high based on the responses I've already gotten. Five graduates schools from New York to Oregon are currently in the process of reviewing my application. Not too optimistic about those either.
But I've realized something. I don't think there's ever been a time in my life when there were more possibilities before me. There isn't anything holding me down anywhere. I can go wherever I want and do anything I choose. If I want to spend the next 3 years working at Starbucks and writing a book, I can do it. If I want to move halfway across the world and try to find a job, I can. It's simultaneously terrifying and exhilarating.
When I graduated from high school, there were a lot of possibilities ahead. But they were all somewhat predetermined. I already knew where I'd be going to school, where I'd be living. And I'd know for a long time. There was a ton of time to prepare and get comfortable with the idea. The University of Illinois was a new, but familiar place to me.
When you have no idea where you're going to be or what you're going to be doing in a matter of months, it's hard not to think about it a lot. And I have been.
It's brought me to one conclusion. I can't wait to find out.

SONG OF THE MOMENT:
"Off the Record" - My Morning Jacket

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