(I'm drunk)

I'm done. done with finals. I have no more to do with this school for at least another month. So, of course a celebreation is in demand.

So, I go out tonight, to the Cly. Wine night. Me, francis, hollister, and the b. We chill for a while a table that was easy to obtain due to our earlyness (we got there before 10, no cover). Eventually a couple of girls came up and sat behind us, which eventually led to holler buyng them drinks that he was bale to get from a wristband that I got him a few weeksa ago. Din't matter though, he didn't invite them to sit with us (not that i'm saying i'd do any better) and they eventually left with a couple other guys.

Another thing to point out here is just how sexist Brend is...he has these ideals in a woman, 1) shorter and lighter than he is 2) likes to stay home and 3) knows when to shut up. Yuh huh. He's single if any of you girls want him.

He also has this crazy idea of reading the encyclopedia to his children as betime stories. I guess he feels it'll be educational....I guess it's kind of the opposite side of the spectrum as the idea of a freind of a friend to throw shiny rocks for his children to collect while he drinks and bangs his wife/mistress/babysitter. whatever, he's nuts.

Anyway, we sat in content with ourselves as we got drunk, girls come and go, whatever. Brend starts talking to a girl at length who has a gay guy friend with her...the rest of us gradually exuse ourselves downstairs.

There was a bit of dixcussion over the quality of girl she was, but I didn't care. he was getting more than I was. I didn't think she was half bad in the first place, but whatever.

Brend eventually catches up to us and somehow partially blames his not hooking up with the fact that we left some stuff at the table and he didn't want us to feel like he left it there for others to steal. whatever, he could have called us to tell us that instead of calling us to find out where we were as he left.

Anyway, we end up sitting at another table and a girl comes over to talk to us. Dan apperntly knew her friend or something, but hadn't said "Hi" to her yet. This girl (Dana, Holler, for the last time) started talking to us, and even called us all "[some-word-meaning-something-like-unbeleivably] attractive". Whether she meant that we all were or not, it still felt good. On the other hand, I still got the feeling that she only said it to me cause she said it to everyone else. I've got some confidence problems (stemming mainly from that whole thing that no girl has ever been interested in my appearance, or ever seriously interested about anything about me ever, that I know of) but at least she was nice.

After a while, I noticed that she and Holler were getting close and talking a lot. Maybe it was his proximity that got him such an in, but I didn't care, he was getting something. Good boy. Soon enough, we got the wave, so we excused ourselves and left.

What perturbed me a bit was Dan's reaction. He seemed to think he was talking to the girl just as much as Holler, but since he wasted his time being distracted by another girl for a while he couldn't make a move.

I couldn't handle it, so I ran home crying and naked. Not really, but we had a little tiff and he ran home after w got off the bus.

Dan, you are my best and oldest friend, I love you. This love makes it harder for me to just accept any opinoin you have. You are most annoyed by your best friends and your worst enemies. Understand that the disagreement from myside is not to hurt you, just that I am comforatble enough with you that I know I can express my opinoin without you hating me for too long.

SO there's taht. We later ahd a discussion where it became apparent that he consiered me a cock block and that i had no other goal than stopping him from gettnig any, and that i thought he was a self centered asshole that only had concern for himself.

Hopefully we've cleared that up, as neither of us have given each other any evidence in any direction.

And Holler agrees with everyone.

I guess I can't blame him though, I've been in that situation too.

So I'm gonna go drink some water now. And Dan: Couter doesn't hat you, he only hates that he thinks you hate him. I know Couter better than anyone, whehter you have faith in my head or not.

To everyone: I sove your freindship. I value it above al else. Don't let me lose it, I'll form a hole in my heart that may never be filled. Not a physical hole, for all you retards out there, but seriously. I might cry myself to sleep thinking about this. Be strong, Michael. Be strong.