"I'm thankful for friends and family"
Sometimes I wonder why I put friends before family. I don't particularly enjoy family events, especially those that conflict with things I could do with friends. I rarely get the urge to come home from school unless all my friends are, and I even have a problem remembering to call my parents more than once a month.
Yesterday there ws a power outage and I started to think about what people did before electricity. No instant messanger, no cell phones...these things that make it possible to organize social events any time, almost anywhere. The ability to contact your friends wherever they are, whether they want you to or not (especially if you figure out a way to come up as "unknown call", hehehe). I started to think about what I would do if finding my friends was such a hassle.
My parents went to a movie. Had me and all my friends not had cell phones, I probably would have gone with them. Is technology destroying the importance of family in my head? I knew it could give you cancer...but this is a bit different.
However, this same technology is available to everyone, and although the family structure has deteriorated a bit nationally, I still feel like I care the least.
So there's my mom's side of the family, which is now just my aunt and my grandma. They seem to love me, but maybe too much. It's at a point where it's uncomfortable. Before college I saw them maybe once a month, if that. Then I go away and they seem offended when I'm not calling them, even if I came home and saw them that month. They get offended when I forget the birthday's that I can't recall ever being told the dates of. Or they leave a bunch of food for my brother and I while my parents are away over the summer and get offended that we don't eat it all. And if I'm not offending them, they're criticising my ability to get a job (and my aunt just recently got a job after searching for over a year, and its temporary). Basically, time spent with them has been uncomfortable for a while as I seem to be a dissapointment to them, no matter how often they say i'm not.
Then there is the other sde of the family, the O'Malley side. They seem much more fun lovin and care free, but at the same time seem to be as indifferent as I am. Or maybe thats just towards my branch. I did always feel like some of my cousins were more loved. Make's me wonder if my dad was a worse kid than I've heard, he is the oldest son. Anyway, we get together for holidays and when family members come in from texas or nevada, but not much else. And like Thanksgiving today, they'll all tend to leave early because the turkey and the wine has knocked them out. Somehow they can drive while knocked out.
How did I get the O'Malley feeling for family when I spend so much more time with the Daly's? I guess its just easier, seems more comfortable. But my parents have always been good to me, I talked to my mom all the time in when I was in high school. Why do i never miss them? It's not like they didn't try to stress family, we used to have family nights all the time, and at least once a week we'd watch a movie all together.
I do love them and I'd never want to lose them, but I often wonder why I don't consider them significant enough to miss them more than I do. I always thought I had good parents, and wanted to be like them, but now i want to know how I can keep my future children loving me after they leave.
I wonder if there's any leftover slider stuffing...
I hope no one gets mad at me for the use of any part of their body in the header image...I would really prefer that my balls remain intact. Its supposed to just look like a big fat party scene withut any recognizable faces. There was no alterior motive. If need be, I'll edit it in a week.
And there is my pre-emptive apology.
Okay, this is looking like the new design for now. it is not finished, and probably wont be until next week when I can get my hands on photoshop again. Until then, I will try to post more. And redoing the archives. And possible making a bunch of posts from a while ago.
Here's a test. I just wanna see what it looks like.
And Roger Ebert can blow it out his nose.
I'm actually only posting this because of the ♥. I love ♥'s. I like to type " ♥ ". I also like ♠ for digging and ♣ for beatings, but ♦ are for women-folk.