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Why doesn't anyone like me?

Poop. I was almost content with the enthusiastic but very very small response to my "Falling Action" cd. Then I listened to it again today. Granted, it is 4:30 am and my judgement as to what exactly is "good" is probably a little bit skewed, but I think this stuff is good. Darn good. I'm sorta stumped. I sold lots of the "cacophonic" cd. I sold like 25 of the falling action. Is $8 too much to pay for a cd these days, or what? Perhaps its because releasing a cd at greenville is no big deal. Perhaps its because honesty is boring. Perhaps its because I have a big head and the music really actually really does suck. Perhaps its because I never play live. Perhaps its because I don't network with people much. Perhaps i'm dumb. But if I'm dumb, I'm an ANGRY dumb person.

On second thought, I don't really think that my music is that great. I just think that a lot of the stuff people like sucks. Like the R&B fools that I record. The most amazing thing about them is that they actually think that they are working HARD at this thing called "music." They are wrong on three counts. 1) They are not working hard. 2) They are not WORKING at all. 3) They aren't making music. What right do they have to call themselves musicians? They don't make their own beats. They don't write very original lyrics. They don't put any of themselves into it. In fact, they are hippocrical in almost EVERY syllable. They are a mockery. They don't live the live the rap about. And to top it all off, they don't know what fricken BPM is. This is getting rediculous.

I want to start a record label. A nonprofit one. Offering free (or nearly free) recording to artists that I think are honest. To me, honesty is the thing that separates us from the (musical) animals. Honesty is what gives a rockin band something to rock about. Honesty keeps Hilary Duff out of a job. Musical honesty is what I value. Honesty is hard to find sometimes, though.

Back to the record label idea. I don't really have a good plan to bring this about. I don't have the resources to advertise, to front money for duplication, etc... I don't really have the time to be doing this either. Making records takes a long time. Time that I should be spending setting myself on more respectable careers. One must fund their passions somehow. It is unfortunate for those who love the humanities that they cannot make a living doing what they are best at.

Back again to the record label idea. I can't really offere anything to artists to answer the "why should I record a CD with you?" then to say that I will record you very cheaply, and thats about it. Pedalboy has no fan base. If pedalboy did, he could afford duplication and make more cds. Its too much work to make them yourself and still keep a high quality standard. So its pretty much out of the question to tell all the pedalboy fans that there's this other band that's awesome and that you should buy their cd. Where does one find large numbers of people who appreciate the kind of music I am talking about? Wierd, eclectic, folky, sincere, whatever it may be? I don't know. But if I ever find out, I may just go through with it.

Anyway comments are appreciated. Help me market myself and others. What do you all think of the idea of a non-profit record label? Can you help push the pedalboy? Want to win a date with Ted Hamilton? POST.